need to start blogging again

I am off track! this has happened before and I got back on so I need to do that again, I know that its because I havn't been blogging, and I want to blog, but I am so busy. I have all these papers due and work and interning I am so stressed. SO tomorrow I will ge back on track and blog everyday. I am just trying to maintain now so this is a whole new experience. I may be up a couple pounds, but 'll work on that now. I am just trying to stay with in a range. blah I need to get to bed. ts 2:14 and I have to wake up at 6 :(

I am still alive!

Hi ya'all! Just wanted to apologize for not blogging for so long! Right now I am actually on That Toby road trip. We're about to head back hom now, and i will share about the concerts later, but I just wanted to check in right now.

Last weigh in.... 128.6... Yep I made my goal. SO Now I am just going to play it by how I feel. Right now I feel like I want to go down to 125, so we'll see how I feel when I get there! :) I didn't go completley off my diet in this little vacation but I didn't count calories so I am just gonna hop back on track tomorrow when I get home.

At one of the fan club preparties before the concert someone took a picture of me and I actuall think i look small in it lol. I never think that so I have a mega boost of self-esteem right now. Shall I post the pic?

I am in the black shirt:



I don't know...I just like it!
I never like pics. we're about to head home on the 7 hour drive, but I am going to try and comment on few blogs before we leave the hotel! Sorry its been so long. Toby keeps me busy!

wow, Staying on track does pay off!!

weighed in this morning...

132!!!


well thats a new number for me!!! I have been on track for about aweek without binging! I am very proud of myself :). up until a week ago I had been aiming for 1200 calories a day, but I decided that wasn't working for me, I was never satisfied at the end of the day. I was very hesitant about changing it to 1400 calories aday, but I thought I would try, I figured the worst that could happen would be that I would maintain. and I am actually down. I was up last week around 134 so I am down 2 pounds this week. The biggest loss I have had in awhile. If I can lose 2 more pounds before go to Florida I will be a very happy person, and at my original goal that I set for myself!

when I eat 1400 calories a day I never feel like binging because I don't feel like I need to eat. I LOVE it.
rasing the limit has been the best thing to ever happen to me!

Yesturday my stomache was telling me all day I was hungry, it was growling, but I couldn't eat. THAT is SO UNUSUAL FOR ME! Normally I am tempted to eat everything in site, but yesturday everything I did eat I had to force down my face. So In ended up eatng only 950 calories. I don't know why I felt like that. I never have before, but I kind of feel like that today since I can't pull myself to eat beakfest and usually thats the first thing I do when I wake up. For the first time in my life I have no appetite... Has this ever happened to anyone else? Why does it happen?
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I got some sleep

Yep its true, I finally got some sleep. Too bad I was in the middle of working on that 15 page paper :( Yep you read that correctly. I fell asleep at the computer!!!!! It def sucked! But at least I feel better. Now that the first draft of the paper is turned in I hope to be back to my normal blogging self!!

I have been on track, hang on let me check my food journal...., 5 days now! Yep 5 days in a row!! yay!! I might make it 7 days again!! ;p I weighed myself and I am sad to say the scale is hovering around 135....2 pounds heavier then the 133 i weighed in at a couple weeks ago, Yes I am dissapointed, but I am working hard to lose those couple pounds I gained back. I would really like to be 130 by the time I go to florida (August 4th-August 13th)

I have been working very late shifts at work, but its ok. I am actually kind of enjoying them...and I promise that has nothing to do with who I am working with...or maybe it does...

I hope every one is doing well. I am going to read and catch up on some of your blogs. I know the blog comunity is back up but since I have been so busy the past week or two I haven'tvisited it much. WHo stayed here, and who went back there? Whats going on? because I made my blog again, but never posted on it really because I was using this one...

Thanks for cheering me up

I haven't posted in awhile and I am not sure why, but when I recieved a few comments in my inbox this afternoon I knew I missed you all.

I was off track last week but back on track for about 2 days now. I did't weigh myself Sunday. I don't normally like to do that, but i just didn't want to see the damage. Well now its onto damage control. I will weigh myself on sunday and hopefully won't see a gain.

I am so stupid. thought the due date for my first draft of my 15 page paper was the 17th, but its the 11th. So tomorrow I have to write a dumb 15 page paper, I am angr because I am going to intern in the morning and the paper is going to take up the rest of my day!! SO my day off is ruined! BLAH

sleeeeeep

I need sleep. This sucks. EVer since that night I slept 17 hours (one week ago) I have not gotten a full nights sleep. Its like I am soooo tired and I can't sleep. I wake up every hour at least once and then I have trouble falling back to sleep. If I am lucky I'll go two hours before I wake up. I do not like this at all. At first I was brushing it off and not thinking much of it because i figured it was just a couple bad days, but it won't stop. I am waking up all the time, yet i am dead tired!! any suggestions??

Oh eyah diet wise the past two days were great, but today not soo much.

better

I did better today, feeling a litle better which helped. I did stay with in my limit, but I have to admit I did not chose the heathiest choices today. I am going to make this short because i worked today so I am DEAD!!! I think I am just hping to remain the same when I weigh in on sunday instead of a loss!! ah, we all have bad weeks right??

Not myself

Haven't been myself the last few days. Not sure why. Can't seem to stay awake long enough to get anything done. I missed my internship today because I felt so ill. I don't know whats wrong with me. Headaches, tummy aches, always tired. I can't shake it. I go back to work tomorrow too so thats not good.

My diet has been suffering. Sunday I didn't track. Monday I had 2100 calories :( (I don't think thats enough to make me gain because I think I use more then that in one day) At least I tracked, Today I am at my limit but I don't think i am done eating yet. I am just not satisfied. I had no cereal though so thats a start on progress. Tomorrow back on track no matter what. I don't care that its the 4th of July.

I miss you guys even though its only been a couple days. I am going to go catch up on all your lovely blogs. Well hopefully I can stay awake long enough!!!

What!?!?!?!

I just steped on the scale for my weigh in and I am shocked!!!! I just don't believe it!!!

133.6!!


Ok i know thats not a whole pound, it means I am only down .8, but I wan't expecting to be down at all!! I have never seen 133 on the scale before I am sooo happy right now!!